They don’t know otherwise…
One thing I have noticed is how many times on a day-to-day basis someone will talk to you about the ‘future’ and you’re suddenly reminded several times a day that you are not necessarily going to be around in the future. I’m talking about strangers; like the lady at Chipmunks who might say “he’s gonna be a handful when he grows up with looks like that”. Or the lady in the clothing store that says “you’ll get years of wear out of that”. Or the older lady in the park that says “your son is just gorgeous, you’ll have to have lots more children”. Or the man at the pharmacy that says “he can take that when he’s 5 and over, but in the meantime give him this”. And the lady I met in the park in Warkworth who went on for ages about all things I will have to prepare myself for having a teenage son one day like she does. I didn’t tell her I wouldn’t be around. Most of the time I don’t feel like talking about being sick, especially to a stranger. Anyway, these small passing comments that you hear every day, especially as a parent, are hard to hear. In my head I’m saying “I’m probably not going to be here then, thanks for the reminder!!!!”, or “I can’t blimmin’ have any more kids OK!!” But instead I smile sweetly and say “thanks”. Then take a deep breath and give myself a little pep talk reminding me to be more positive and maybe I will be here, you never know. =)
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