To chemo or not to chemo…24th Feb 2011
Feb 8th 2011
Well I finally saw my oncologist, Mike today since my CT Scan. I told him everything the specialist said to me about time frames and not doing chemo maybe etc etc. He agreed with everything the specialist said apart from he wasn’t convinced we shouldn’t give chemo another try.
Mike says that maybe chemo will only buy me 3mths, and it will mean 3mths of being on it too, but maybe, just maybe it will buy me 6mths. The way he saw it is that if they put me on an oral form of chemo it will mean I’m not wasting time in a hospital every week, I’m not away from Jackson and the side effects of the oral chemo are not as great as the AC; I won’t lose my hair or get as tired or nauseous, but there will be some nausea, peeling hands, very sore soles of my feet, loss of sensation in my finger tips and again a loss of immunity so I can’t go anywhere to do that much.
After talking it through and expressing my concerns about the fact that continuous chemo can just keep making my cancer come back stronger etc, Mike simply said “you are the one who has to look in the mirror and ask yourself if you have done everything you can to fight and if you believe that you have without this chemo then he respects my decision, but in trying one more round, we take a chance that he believe is worth taking”. So he told me think about for 6weeks as I told him regardless of our decision we wanted some more time enjoying feeling good, the summer and there are lots of things coming up like our best friends coming from Africa to stay for 2weeks and its probably going to be the last time I ever see them. He said that was fine so I now just have to make that decision. Greg wants me to but totally respects my decision not to if that’s what I want.
At this stage, now 2.5weeks later, I’m leaning towards doing it, probably starting in mid April. So let’s just hope it can buy me some time and not cost me any…
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